This is nothing on nothing, so don’t bother reading it…  I just figure I need to get in the habit of posting stuff..  so here’s stuff.  Here’s something. 

I’m frustrated that my writing seems like shit at the moment.. or my blogging.  My words are painful to try and read..  I’m sure I have stuff worth saying.. and when I really get into it..  seems like it might even be worth reading, but how to get from here to there is a giant question mark.. if for no other reason then for fear that someone might actually read these words.

At Podcamp Boston 2 I had this kind of paranoia.. this feeling that some of the people you are bumping into are reading what you have to say.. or worse still, listening to what you have to say via the podcast..  Some of these bastards even have the audacity to tell you to your face “yeah, I checked out your podcast.”  

My reply is usually one of sympathy.. that they had to suffer through such a thing..  and those bastards have no problem lying to your face.. they tell you things like “no, I thought it was kind of interesting,” or “very unique” (now there’s a passive aggressive comment if I ever heard one!), or um..  I don’t know, they say different things..

 Yeah, ok.. some of these social media folks are just nice folks.. gotta lot of humanity and all that.. but um.. yeah…  I don’t know..  you could say I have a few anxieties about putting myself out there like this.  You could say..  

Well anyway..  So I’m going to try and keep posting..  I haven’t since my mom passed away..  And I think its time to step up to the plate again and start swinging..  now being the end of 2007…  the last few hours there of.. might as well post something..    

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